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When I’m on my period I just pray to God that I won’t freaking bleed through my pants. It sucks how I have to carefully get up so I’m not overwhelmed with a rush of blood. It sucks that I get cramps and look 10 times fatter and how my face breaks out. It sucks when I’m on my period at school. It sucks, dude. I remember when I first got my period. I got up one morning took a pee and then saw blood on my underwear. I didn’t know it lasted more than a day, I had heard it was just once a month. I didn’t bother to wear a pad that night, and so when I woke up the next morning, I guess I bled through my pj’s, and my sisters were making fun of me. Had to bribe them to drop it. I’ve had a lot of pretty bad experiences with periods. Not fun.

I wish I was more outgoing, and more adventurous. I wish I was more approachable and less shy. I wish I could hold a decent conservation with the opposite sex without making myself look ridiculous. I wish I wasn’t so awkward. I wish I did everything right and pleased everyone. I wish I had a higher self esteem. I wish I could make friends. I wish I could keep friends. I wish I didn’t complain so much. I wish I had a good sense of humor. I wish I wasn’t so aloof. I wish I could accept myself for who I am. &I wish I didn’t have to wish for any of this.

Love seems like a beautiful thing, but I’m in no hurry for it. I’m too young to commit myself to a whole other being. &I’ve come to the realization that love doesn’t have to be rushed because I have my entire life ahead if me. I have my entire life to find someone to love. So I’m going to live my life, & if somewhere along the way I happen to stumble across that thing called “love”, then so be it.

yvonneshelly:

People need to understand this.

(Source: hellyeahitsrandom, via yvonniski)

I was talking to a friend, and he sometimes likes to ask those get-to-know-you-more questions. & I couldn’t answer any of them which was sad. All I managed to say was.. “Er, I really don’t know. Stop asking me those types of questions!”

What do I like to do for fun?: I don’t really do anything “fun”. I do the same things everyday, even on the weekdays. I don’t go out much, well I can’t go out much. I spend my days doing homework, and that’s pretty much all I do now. During the Summer I didn’t do anything either, since I didn’t have homework, I just watched tv (Netflix).

What makes you happy?: God of course, and family, but that’s sort of second nature. But besides that, I don’t know what makes me happy. Maybe food. I can’t even think of anything else, seriously.

Tell you about myself?: I can give you basic facts, like my favorite stuff. But what am I even supposed to say? I really don’t even like talking about myself because I define boring, and I’m aware of that. I don’t do any sports or extracurricular activities, I don’t play an instrument, & I don’t have any spectacular talents. I’m average, maybe even less than average.

I really don’t have a life outside of my house.
I don’t even really know who I am.